Ramblings

I started this blog post just for myself.  Then I looked at the title ‘life is not always sweet’ that I’d hastily used…since I don’t always think things through.  I have this feeling that the computer gets annoyed with me if I’m not quick on my feet.

The title suggests that I’m about to list all the crappy things that have happened to me since I was born.  Not only would that take pages and pages, but it would put me in a funk, and it would seem like a contest.  I absolutely know that other people have much crappier things happen to them.

One thing you should know about me that will come out in my ramblings is that I have been cursed with anxiety my entire life.  It will definitely rear it’s sharp toothy head somewhere along the line here.

For instance, I had breast and lymph cancer a few years ago.  Some of my nicest friends decided to throw a cancer fund raiser for me.  I was touched and horribly embarrassed.  My idea of getting attention is when someone says, “Oh, I love your shoes.”  This was over the top.  I’m grateful, don’t get me wrong.  These marvelous people helped me tremendously.  But I can’t help but wonder if they aren’t just a little disappointed that I didn’t die.  I mean that’s a lot of effort, money, and time put into someone who just stops having cancer and goes on their merry way.

 

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